Beatnik
YOU ARE GOING TO MAKE MISTAKES.
A lot more than you care to. You are going to fail. A lot. You are going to wake up some days and wish you hadn't. You are going to make a fool of yourself. You're going to completely lose your mind, several times over, sometimes more severely than the last. You're going to be at risk of forgetting who you are, what you believe in, and who you want to be.
Don’t ever desert your family. Even when one of them is sitting in prison for murder, be the one that cares. Be the one that keeps them alive. Don't let your siblings down. Sam is family, and if you ever doubt that, remember the stone. You made a promise, and you'll keep it. Look out for your family.
Keep your promises. Don't make promises you can't keep. Don't break the promises you make to yourself for anything.
Remember that you are human.
You are not perfect. Own up to your mistakes. Be brutally honest. People will leave you because of your honesty. But then you'll learn. The only time you can regret the awful things you've done are when you don't learn. That makes you a waste. Don't tell half-truths. Don't bend the truth. Don't twist the truth. Don't stretch the truth. Nothing makes the truth weaker.
Don't be afraid.
Take risks.
Live for fear. Do things that scare you as often as you can, but don't do things only because they scare you. Do them because you'll enrich yourself. Do them because you'll learn.
Don't forget about your soul.
Don't forget what you believe in.
There are some things you can never let yourself stop caring about no matter how bad it gets.
And it will get bad.
You will feel like you're dying again. You will go numb again. You won't want to sleep, you won't want to stay awake, you won't want to eat. The feeling will come back. Don't wallow. Don't hide. Don't run from help.
Love those that love you. Not everyone will like you. Some people will despise you. Even the ones you love.
Some people have a funny way of showing they love you. Don't doubt them. You never know what is going on inside a person's head, or in their life.
Let people be mad at you. If it lasts, learn something.
Sometimes, the people you love the most in the entire world will desert you. Sometimes they will judge you. Every now and then, they'll never forgive you.
Don't hate them.
Accept that you're ugly. You can't begin to change that until you accept it.
Accept that those you love will do ugly things, too.
Don't be a hypocrite.
If you lose yourself, find your way back again as fast as you can.
Don't roll with it. Don't let yourself be someone you're not. Lock yourself in, go out and paint, swim in the middle of winter, run until your heart wants to explode, do anything you can to feel alive.
Drinking is not a solution. Drinking is a problem. Addiction runs in your family. You will be addicted to things again. You'll break your addictions, whether you're forced to or you choose to.
You are strong. You know what happened when you were weak. But you were strong enough to get out, and you are strong enough never to be weak again.
You may be ugly, but there are some things that no one deserves.
Soften your heart. Don't grow bitter again.
Forgive everyone. Even those that kept you weak. Don't hurt them.
If people talk about you, let them.
If it's lies, it doesn't matter.
If it's truth, why deny it?
Never judge anyone. Ever. Listen to them. Do what others won't.
Be patient. You won't always get what you want, and sometimes what you want could kill you if you have it. Be patient.
"My predicament was the just punishment of the most fatal of human follies, our not having known when to stop.”
Don't get impatient enough to make irrational decisions. Don't go against your morals to get what you want. If you can't get what you want, you shouldn't have it.
Life isn't about being happy.
You're a free spirit, but don't let your love of anarchy go too far.
True anarchism is an ideal that hurts nobody but yourself.
But you are going to hurt people. You are going to hurt people again and again. And each time you'll hate yourself. And if you don't, you should hurt yourself. Learn from hurting people. Don't let it happen again.
There are going to be sunshine people in your life. There are going to be the vaseline people. There are going to be toxic people. Learn to distinguish them.
Trust people. Being gullible is better than being bitter.
If you look in the mirror and hate what you see, you're not being you. And that's a shame, because no one is you-er than you.
You don't have to be an artist. You can be a runner disguised as a graffiti artist. Don't let yourself be an artist. Don't let yourself pursue hedonism. Hedonism is far too ugly to be worth any fleeting happiness it may bring.
You will take on too much. You will risk running yourself into the ground. Don't be afraid to give things up. But don't be afraid to commit. Standing still can be just as exciting as dodging bullets.
Live your life for others, but recognise that at times you have to do things for yourself. Don't feel guilty. If you do things that help yourself sometimes, they help those around you.
Don't mug yourself. You do not lack the skills to make decisions. Don't avoid trying for fear of failing. You will make bad decisions, and you will make good decisions. Don’t sabotage the beautiful things in your life because they scare you. Because you’re scared you don’t deserve them. You don’t deserve the beautiful things in your life, but you are blessed with them anyway. Be grateful. Be thankful. Tell people you love them.
Laugh at life. Life is absolutely hilarious, and you know it.
But don't stop yourself from crying.
Life is frustrating, difficult, and sometimes it's just too hard.
Don't top yourself.
Think of the people you'd leave behind. Some days it will get so bad you want die, and some days everything will be so perfect you’ll feel ready for your heart to stop.
Think about how it would be if you died tomorrow. Don’t run from that. Don’t push it to the back of your mind. Be who you want to be. You don’t want to be someone that makes you sick. Live in the moment.
Don’t justify the things you do by comparing your life with others. You are not anyone but yourself. You are Siobhan Camille Milner. You are a big sister. You are a little-big sister. You are a daughter, a granddaughter, a niece, a cousin.
Say what you mean and mean what you say, because those who mind don’t matter, and those who matter don’t mind.
Life is a gift, cherish it.
Life is a challenge, and you love a challenge, don't you?
A lot more than you care to. You are going to fail. A lot. You are going to wake up some days and wish you hadn't. You are going to make a fool of yourself. You're going to completely lose your mind, several times over, sometimes more severely than the last. You're going to be at risk of forgetting who you are, what you believe in, and who you want to be.
Don’t ever desert your family. Even when one of them is sitting in prison for murder, be the one that cares. Be the one that keeps them alive. Don't let your siblings down. Sam is family, and if you ever doubt that, remember the stone. You made a promise, and you'll keep it. Look out for your family.
Keep your promises. Don't make promises you can't keep. Don't break the promises you make to yourself for anything.
Remember that you are human.
You are not perfect. Own up to your mistakes. Be brutally honest. People will leave you because of your honesty. But then you'll learn. The only time you can regret the awful things you've done are when you don't learn. That makes you a waste. Don't tell half-truths. Don't bend the truth. Don't twist the truth. Don't stretch the truth. Nothing makes the truth weaker.
Don't be afraid.
Take risks.
Live for fear. Do things that scare you as often as you can, but don't do things only because they scare you. Do them because you'll enrich yourself. Do them because you'll learn.
Don't forget about your soul.
Don't forget what you believe in.
There are some things you can never let yourself stop caring about no matter how bad it gets.
And it will get bad.
You will feel like you're dying again. You will go numb again. You won't want to sleep, you won't want to stay awake, you won't want to eat. The feeling will come back. Don't wallow. Don't hide. Don't run from help.
Love those that love you. Not everyone will like you. Some people will despise you. Even the ones you love.
Some people have a funny way of showing they love you. Don't doubt them. You never know what is going on inside a person's head, or in their life.
Let people be mad at you. If it lasts, learn something.
Sometimes, the people you love the most in the entire world will desert you. Sometimes they will judge you. Every now and then, they'll never forgive you.
Don't hate them.
Accept that you're ugly. You can't begin to change that until you accept it.
Accept that those you love will do ugly things, too.
Don't be a hypocrite.
If you lose yourself, find your way back again as fast as you can.
Don't roll with it. Don't let yourself be someone you're not. Lock yourself in, go out and paint, swim in the middle of winter, run until your heart wants to explode, do anything you can to feel alive.
Drinking is not a solution. Drinking is a problem. Addiction runs in your family. You will be addicted to things again. You'll break your addictions, whether you're forced to or you choose to.
You are strong. You know what happened when you were weak. But you were strong enough to get out, and you are strong enough never to be weak again.
You may be ugly, but there are some things that no one deserves.
Soften your heart. Don't grow bitter again.
Forgive everyone. Even those that kept you weak. Don't hurt them.
If people talk about you, let them.
If it's lies, it doesn't matter.
If it's truth, why deny it?
Never judge anyone. Ever. Listen to them. Do what others won't.
Be patient. You won't always get what you want, and sometimes what you want could kill you if you have it. Be patient.
"My predicament was the just punishment of the most fatal of human follies, our not having known when to stop.”
Don't get impatient enough to make irrational decisions. Don't go against your morals to get what you want. If you can't get what you want, you shouldn't have it.
Life isn't about being happy.
You're a free spirit, but don't let your love of anarchy go too far.
True anarchism is an ideal that hurts nobody but yourself.
But you are going to hurt people. You are going to hurt people again and again. And each time you'll hate yourself. And if you don't, you should hurt yourself. Learn from hurting people. Don't let it happen again.
There are going to be sunshine people in your life. There are going to be the vaseline people. There are going to be toxic people. Learn to distinguish them.
Trust people. Being gullible is better than being bitter.
If you look in the mirror and hate what you see, you're not being you. And that's a shame, because no one is you-er than you.
You don't have to be an artist. You can be a runner disguised as a graffiti artist. Don't let yourself be an artist. Don't let yourself pursue hedonism. Hedonism is far too ugly to be worth any fleeting happiness it may bring.
You will take on too much. You will risk running yourself into the ground. Don't be afraid to give things up. But don't be afraid to commit. Standing still can be just as exciting as dodging bullets.
Live your life for others, but recognise that at times you have to do things for yourself. Don't feel guilty. If you do things that help yourself sometimes, they help those around you.
Don't mug yourself. You do not lack the skills to make decisions. Don't avoid trying for fear of failing. You will make bad decisions, and you will make good decisions. Don’t sabotage the beautiful things in your life because they scare you. Because you’re scared you don’t deserve them. You don’t deserve the beautiful things in your life, but you are blessed with them anyway. Be grateful. Be thankful. Tell people you love them.
Laugh at life. Life is absolutely hilarious, and you know it.
But don't stop yourself from crying.
Life is frustrating, difficult, and sometimes it's just too hard.
Don't top yourself.
Think of the people you'd leave behind. Some days it will get so bad you want die, and some days everything will be so perfect you’ll feel ready for your heart to stop.
Think about how it would be if you died tomorrow. Don’t run from that. Don’t push it to the back of your mind. Be who you want to be. You don’t want to be someone that makes you sick. Live in the moment.
Don’t justify the things you do by comparing your life with others. You are not anyone but yourself. You are Siobhan Camille Milner. You are a big sister. You are a little-big sister. You are a daughter, a granddaughter, a niece, a cousin.
Say what you mean and mean what you say, because those who mind don’t matter, and those who matter don’t mind.
Life is a gift, cherish it.
Life is a challenge, and you love a challenge, don't you?
Comments
Happy Theme Thursday, great writings.
God bless.