I'm only pretty sure, that I can't take anymore
Everything feels a little tainted at the moment.
I'm rather lucky that there are all these little moments that can lift me up.
Just when I'm getting low again, just when it's getting too much, there's a delicious little moment.
Seeing someone for just half an hour before school.
Actually doing alright in indoor soccer!
Reffing my football team. (My goodness, I tell you, children really are a blessing. I am so lucky to be able to work with them. There is something very healing about them.)
Getting my parents approval.
Actually, I realised a couple of nights ago that my parents really are legends.
I don't know about other people my age, but I never used to really talk to my parents about 'life' issues or whatever.
But man, they came home on Thursday night, (after my rather depressing Theme Thursday post) and they are so bloody good to talk to!
I don't know why, but I always feel like I need them to approve of everything I do, and I hate letting them down so much.
And you know what they told me?
That I'm my own person.
That it's not their life, it's mine, and that I don't have to be like them.
I don't have to get engaged at 16. (Thank goodness, cause I'm already past that and would have failed them there!)
I don't have to buy my first house at 17. (Secretly, I might like to, though!)
And unlike them, I don't have to start my own business at 18.
They respect my decisions.
It blows my mind that they can accept some of the stuff I do more than other people my age.
These middle aged parents are cooler about what I want to do than all my friends!
Sure, Dad's a little iffy on the whole graffiti thing, haha, but I'm all legal so far! (Excepting a little itty bitty one)
And for some reason, I've always felt like they have to approve of the relationships in my life.
You know, the boys they meet, or boy, really, and whether or not I end relationships.
And they said that they will support me whatever I do.
Damn that's nice to hear.
I'm rather lucky that there are all these little moments that can lift me up.
Just when I'm getting low again, just when it's getting too much, there's a delicious little moment.
Seeing someone for just half an hour before school.
Actually doing alright in indoor soccer!
Reffing my football team. (My goodness, I tell you, children really are a blessing. I am so lucky to be able to work with them. There is something very healing about them.)
Getting my parents approval.
Actually, I realised a couple of nights ago that my parents really are legends.
I don't know about other people my age, but I never used to really talk to my parents about 'life' issues or whatever.
But man, they came home on Thursday night, (after my rather depressing Theme Thursday post) and they are so bloody good to talk to!
I don't know why, but I always feel like I need them to approve of everything I do, and I hate letting them down so much.
And you know what they told me?
That I'm my own person.
That it's not their life, it's mine, and that I don't have to be like them.
I don't have to get engaged at 16. (Thank goodness, cause I'm already past that and would have failed them there!)
I don't have to buy my first house at 17. (Secretly, I might like to, though!)
And unlike them, I don't have to start my own business at 18.
They respect my decisions.
It blows my mind that they can accept some of the stuff I do more than other people my age.
These middle aged parents are cooler about what I want to do than all my friends!
Sure, Dad's a little iffy on the whole graffiti thing, haha, but I'm all legal so far! (Excepting a little itty bitty one)
And for some reason, I've always felt like they have to approve of the relationships in my life.
You know, the boys they meet, or boy, really, and whether or not I end relationships.
And they said that they will support me whatever I do.
Damn that's nice to hear.
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@She Writes - I know! It's all very dandy!